Crisis of Confidence: A Poem

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Crisis of Confidence

In the moonlight
(half-light)
jack-knife shadow against the wall
I sat on the bathroom tile
and had a crisis of confidence.

What was I doing,
and who was I to say
that someday,
someday —

Didn’t I owe myself more?
Owe my family more?

The pills spun in the sink,
spinning their sugar-shells away,
twisting and twirling,
empty wholes waiting
like ballerinas in the wings,
while I sat there
yearning to be —

Okay would’ve been good enough for me.

Black-and-white balcony shadows
beckoned, high tide waters
foaming at the mouth of Elysium.
I knocked my head against the wall
and, dreaming, began to fall
into a world of blotchy
purple and blue,
far, far away
from you.

waves on a beach
ballerinas in the wings, a line from "Crisis of Confidence"
a skinny woman

Poet’s Notes

The content of this poem is a little dark, though it might not appear that way at first sight. This isn’t your average “crisis of confidence.”

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